It is a really hard time for my family right now. One of the best women I have ever known is very sick. My sweet, wonderful nana is in the hospital and she is not expected to make it through the weekend. This woman has been there for me through my entire life. When I was wrong she would tell me....and she would be one of the first ones to help me through a hard time. Infact, without her...I don't beleive I would have made it through very many things in my life. I could always lean on her. Even when she was going through a hard time she was the strong one...holding everyone else up. She is truely amazing and my heart is hurting so bad.
With this, I have been thinking about life. And how it begins, and it ends. I am bringing a beautiful new life into this world in a few short months and I only hope that I can be an example of strength and determination for my son like Nana always was and always will be to me. I just hope that I can help Eric know her even though she will not be here to show him how much she loves him. Since the day I found out I was pregnant she would put her little hand on my belly and just rub it....she would say "I cant tell yet if its a boy or a girl" and she would ask my mom when we got to meet "the new little person" She told me one of the last time we talked that she hoped that she would be able to hold him with her weak little arms. I told her that she would most definitely be able to do that.....Strange how quickly things can change.
The best part about this situation is that I know that she will get to know my little man before even I do. She will love him from heaven and she will always, always look over him and protect him. And she has such a strong way of loving that I know that we will all be able to feel her love for the rest of our lives.
She was my number one fan and I will miss her every day.
This is the face of a true angel and one of the biggest hearts in the world..this was my wedding day. She always promised me that she would stick around long enough to dance at my wedding. Though she couldnt dance, she was there with me the whole day and that is a day that I will never forget.
Today will be my first baby shower. And I am going to do my best to put a smile on my face for nana! She would want me to enjoy it and soak in every moment.
So here is to nana! And all of the wonderful memories!
And just an update on my visit on thursday for my glucose test and U/S. My glucose test was a breeze..and I passed! And I got to see my little man! He is adorable! He is about 1 Lb 6oz and about 13 inches long so far. I had gained a pound since the week before so I am a whopping 126 now.
Thank you all for letting me introduce you to my nana. I know you all would have loved her as much as we all do.