Song

Ok, I have the newest Taylor Swift CD, and have always loved this song.... But it just has all new meaning to me now, and I know when Eric arrives I will probably love it even more! It is called "Never Grow Up" I can not wait to meet my son!

Your little hands wrapped around my finger
And it's so quiet in the world tonight
Your little eyelids flutter 'cause you're dreaming
So I tuck you in, turn on your favorite night light

To you, everything's funny
You got nothing to regret
I'd give all I have, honey
If you could stay like that

Oh, darling, don't you ever grow up, don't you ever grow up
Just stay this little
Oh, darling, don't you ever grow up, don't you ever grow up
It could stay this simple

I won't let nobody hurt you
Won't let no one break your heart
No, no one will desert you
Just try to never grow up, never grow up

That is the first verse...Y'all listen to it on youtube!

I am tired today! We had bad storms around 3 this morning and it woke me up..And then I had a hard time getting back to sleep. My back has really been giving me a hard time. I am not looking forward to it getting worse...I can not imagine that it would get better....because I am only going to grow.

I have been laying flat on my back for a few minutes every night on the couch to try and ease up the back pain...and while doing so I think I might feel some baby movin! I am not really sure though..So I will just keep paying attention and maybe I will be able to tell for sure soon! It is just like weird little popping feelings almost...or like bubbles maybe...I dont know. I will let you all know how it progresses! For all I know it could just be gas! LOL.

I am starting to have a little bit of anxiety about everything from Labor, to bringing Eric home, to working after he is born, to raising him right...It just hit me all at once I think. I mean, I have known that everything is going to change in such an amazing way...and that there would be so many decisions to make...but I am just feeling some nerves thinking about it all. I just want to be such a great mom for him. And I miss him already when I think about leaving him =( But it will all work out...and we will all be fine! Just so many new things and things that I have never had to do before that I think it is a little scary at times. And everything I do is for My son, Michael and myself now. I never really felt like a selfish person but I think until you have a family that everyone is a little selfish. So, here is to new life changes and a beautiful baby boy! All I can do is give it my best!

That is my tid bit for today!

Quote:

It was the tiniest thing I ever decided to put my whole life into. ~ Terri Guillemets